Enough is enough. Ever since I got homethere's been possibility after possibility, and that's all well and good, but the fact is it's been distrracting me from what I really want to be doing with my life. I'm not going to be distracted anymore. Weather I have 2 dimes or or $2,000.00 in my pocket I'm going to go on the Appalachian Trail.. And if II go and run out of food along the way than so be it. And if my Heavenly Father wants me to finish it then He will provide entirely. I learned a lot about God's providence through my buddy Jan on the World Race.
This, "I don't know what to do!" mentallity in my head ends today. I have had plenty of opportunities come my way and they are all things that I'm super interested in, but the honest truth is that they have, been stressing me out. All the questions in mmy head have been, "how will this affect the trail?" or "Will this prevent me from finishing the trail?" All I know is that God has given me a desire to be in tthe wilderness with Him, and to Evangelize to some folks along the way.
My chest literally hurts even thinking how to handle something else or getting prepared for something else. I'm doing the trail. My mind will either be totally empty or totally fillled with The LORD. That's it. Nothing else. I'm done trying to "braccket read" my life. If any of you are march madnes fans or have wrestled for high school or college in the past you know what I'm talkking about. My Myjers-Briggs iis ENFP for crrying out loud!!
Bracket reading is when a wrestler (or basketball fan i guess) trys to come up with different scenarios of how the bracket will play out. Why is this so deadly? Because, as a wrestler, it takes you focus off your next opponent entirely. You haven't even won the next match. What the heck are you doing trying to predict how everything else is going to go? My wrestling coach taught me to forget the rest off the matches and just think about thee next match. In fact it wasn't even that. He told to always be thinking about the next two moves. Not even the match. Just the next two moves that I'm going to be doing on the opponent. Why would life be any different?
"Your word is a lamp to my feet And a light to my path" -NASV
My mom would always ask me how far I thought those lamp and light would shine back in those days. Not very far. Now, I have total confidence that God can show me what the rest of my life is supposed to look like, but for right now He has shown me one thing. That's it. Nothing else. Just because the opportunities come by doessn't mean I'm supposed to do them. Is it a leap of faith going on something like this without any game plan for when I get back? Yeah, I think so, but it also frees me up my mind and time to be totally comittted to The Lord and what I'm doing at the time.
There lol. That's my shpeel. Hope y'all enjoyed. :)
I'll see you on the trail!
Be blessed,
Steven Buffington